Forth of July was pretty fun i got to hang out with my BFFs we had a blast i seen a whole lot of ppl from skool, middle skool, high skool, different programs i had been in it was really nice....  Met a few new faces well i guess they ain't really new if u've seen them around at different places just never knew who they were well i know them now so i guess that's all that matters.  i seen the miracle of hair extensions lol Willy got her hair done and if i had a camera to take before and after shots every single last soul would've been in amazement afterwards it look all real i want to get some just to see how it would look to have them all over i only had them in the back before now i wanna try it everywhere just to see if it'd look pretty on me.... but we had a good time ppl were throwing fireworks at each other and some ppl where about to fight so i guess u can call it pretty festive...then will came and got me and we kinda hung out for a minute and i did some thinkin like always....  but i've been at my grandma's house for the past few days so today i've finally made it home me and mom have been good so far and everything else seems to be back in alignment so life is runnin smoother than before at least.  which i'm very happy about came to a realization of some stuff that i need to stop chasing or doin certain things and just let them come to me when they want to cuz they will eventually so i'mma just lay back and relax and let the universe run as it pleases and stop stressing.  So life is pretty good saving up for a laptop and i'mma get me a new text phone on September 1st cuz that's when my plan upgrades so all i gotta do is find a job when i get down to Muncie and get my work and hustle on and i'll be living it up pretty swell.... I'mma  start lookin up prices for Grayhound transportation so i can travel around on weekends and breaks and stuff cuz that's probably way less than gas just stuff to keep myself busy idk i'm just goin to get ready for my NEW LIFE....

    Ok so Sunday, Monday and Today i had orientation at Ball State it was one of the BEST experiences i've ever had i met so many different people and had so much fun made some really good friends that will definitely be roomie and BFF status and some crazy partying white boys some wonderful country chicks and some dolled up barbies lol....  My mom dropped me off Sunday evening and i was the only one in there at least i didn't see anyone else right then so i took my stuff to my room and walked around campus for a while, i'm not racist or nothin i definitely love all races but sometimes u want to see some ppl of ur own race especially if that's wut u've become accustomed to, but them first few hours i didn't see not a one black person and when i finally did it was this huge cocky football player who flagged me down he seemed really nice i forgot wut his name was but i guess he was tryin to talk to me but i just thought he was being sweet cuz i was new and was showing me around I WAS DEFINITELY WRONG.... but i figured that a lil LATE.... he took me to the library and we were sittin in there just chillin on the computers talkin and i was like ok i'm hungry where can i get some food around here and he was like well everything is closed here and offered to take me to mcdonalds so we drove up there and got some food and he asked if i wanted to chill and eat at his house or go back to the library and me being quite naive was like no i want to go to ur house cuz it's boring up there definitely not one of my smartest moments in life well we got there and he introduced me to one of his roomies and gave me a tour around his house that ended in his room (yea i'm stupid) and he was like we can watch tv and eat in here and i was like sure wutever and sat down on his bed ugh y would i do such a thing!!!! well we were talkin and i was watchin jurassic park on tv and he started touchin me and i was like wut are u doin and he was like just touchin u and i was like okkkk cuz he wasnt doin nothin big so it didn't really phase me like that but i was definitely uncomfortable then he leaned up all against me and was tryin to kiss me and was touchin me and i was like oooooo noooooo dude u can't we can be friends but i gotta boyfriend well no stupid boy ain't wanna hear that he was like he don't gotta know it's just me and u here and i was like naw dude i can't that would be wrong u gotta stop, well he kinda laid off and was just rubbin my leg talkin bout i'm just tryin to have a lil fun and i was no ur tryin to get me in trouble and i guess he thought that was a joke.... and i was like plz take me back to campus and he was like aite i will and stood up and i stood up and he was like give me a hug first so i gave him a hug and of course he tried makin a move again and was coopin his lil feels and i was like plz stop and take me back to skool so we finally left and he was talkin to me in the car talkin bout i was only tryin to have a lil fun.... and i just sat there until i got to the skool and got out and went back to my dorm.... that was the most horrible scariest feeling i've ever had cuz i thought he wouldn't stop and it'd just be a wrap for me i actually cried when i got back to my dorm for being so stupid y would i do such a thing i'm soooooooo retarded but that's one thing i will NEVER repeat again.....
    Well after i got myself together i tried to call william but he didn't answer so i called austin and talked to him for a lil bit then william called and i told him wut happened and while he was talkin to me some orientation kids came and found me and told me to come hang out wit them i'm sooo happy they found me cuz they really made me take my mind off wut had happened and let me enjoy my nite.  We all walked up to the village pantry and were just running around campus until about 12.45 i met these two girls from northwestern indiana they were really coo country girls they were sooooo nice.....  Then monday we did all the 15 million sessions it was pretty nice but the best part was at nite when i finally found some black ppl well actually they found me lol her name is Jasmin she's goin to be my bestfriend i know it me an her clicked right off the back we played pool even though we can't wit this other girl named Sierra and this girl named Kelsey they were so fun... Them me and Jazzy Belle cosmic bowled wit Hans, Dan the Man, Cale and some other ppl it as soooooooo fun and i found a dance group me and her are goin to try out for it was so cool that lasted til 9.30 then we had to go back to the dorms where we sat in the lounge and chilled wit everybody the guys were playin poker and we were watchin and we met the freshmen football players and i guess they was tryin to talk to us it was cute then Toby the tightest white boy ever threw a rave in his dorm room and we went up there and partied and i twerked up this boy named TL it was so funny he didn't know wut to do but it was worth the try it was fun, we partied until the party got shut down by one of the RA's cuz i guess we were making too much noise and there was too many ppl in the room for us to have the door shut and be partying.  So we went back down in the lobby and Jazzy's friend Josh/Will was there checkin in from Atlanta and he was super coo i played wit his dreads and did him a lil design in his hair it was really cute so us three stayed up until 2.30 in the morning.  takin showers and just running around the halls in our pjs that was pretty fun.  Then that morning me and Jazzy woke up late lol and were the last two to get in our session but idk if they cared or not cuz they didn't say ne thing but we tight so we can do that... Well we did more sessions for that whole day then at the end we got back together and got everybody's numbers and hugged everybody and said all our goodbyes it was the BEST EXPERIENCE EVER I CAN'T WAIT FOR COLLEGE!!!

    yesterday was one of the most eventful days i've had the majority of this summer i really had alot of fun.... William came and got me in the morning and i went over there the majority of the day and played Wii, wrestled, went on a walk around his neighborhood, really talked, and even took a nap it was really nice we talked about us gettin an apartment next year a lil bit, and figured that it's a really realistic goal and can be accomplished so i'm happy we are goin to go look at apartments some time in July to get a base of how much we need to collect this year for when he comes here this summer it's really goin to be nice having him at Ball State wit me and actually living in an apartment together it's goin to be really nice, we're not goin to let it intervene with our schooling either we have an understanding that we are goin to help each other and not just play around and party or wutever all the time that we are goin to be seriously on our grind, which is also nice....
    Then William dropped me off at the hookah bar with my sisters and brothers, i got to introduce him to them so i guess he met some more of my family ..... but i didn't think i would like hookah at first when i was reading about it on the internet but it was really fun not one of the healthiest things i coulda done in my life but it's was really nice.  It like gives u a buzz and makes u feel light headed then it tastes really good.  It was really fun we ate there and had smoothies and enjoyed the belly dancers doin their lil dances i could do that since i know how to belly dance i'm goin to see if i can get a job up there belly dancing cuz they make a decent amount of money i'm goin to see if they have a hookah bar in muncie cuz then that would be really nice i'd have a job on deck before i even got there... then lets see i think i have a job in the mall FINALLY my auntie got me on at this really cool store where i get dresses from so i'm just waiting for the lady to put me on the schedule then family video called me yesterday so i have to call them at 5 today and see wut they can do to me i'll take as many jobs as i can get i really need money i'm running super low and then i want to be able to help william a lil wit gas and stuff cuz he does come and get me pretty often and we live on whole different sides of town so that would make me feel better if i could at least contribute ya kno.  Well that's all for right now i have to go to a wedding today so i have to go get ready i hope it's fun and pretty oooo yea today is my 9 month anniversary i'm happy we're gettin up there and still love each other just the same as when we first met i want to celebrate our 10 month because that's goin to be our last lil anniversary b4 we go off to college well write more later .